• I just dont know

    by  • March 13, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, Confession • 0 Comments

    What do you want me to say?
    That you and him were just a game to me?
    I was into you to mess with him, and vice versa?
    I dated him because I was hurt by your rejection?

    I just dont know

    I dont want to say that to you
    It’s simply not true
    I loved you… I still do somewhat
    I love you but I can’t be around you

    And I loved him. I did before he fucked me up
    Part of me cares, but I dont want him around

    I want you around though

    I just dont know

    As much as I want you around, having you around hurts me
    You pop into my life and then pop out… It can be months between our conversations and you act like it was just the day before each time…

    I want to tell you it was a game…. That I’m a manipulative bitch
    So you dont come back

    Because you just hurt me so much
    and I dont know if you actually care about how much you are hurting me

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