I got a notice the other day about my 10 year high school reunion. Cant believe its been 10 years already. I dont think Im gonna go, though. I wasnt the person I wanted to be then, and 10 years later Im still not.
Personally, I’m proud of myself. I feel like a survivor. I feel like I’ve been challenged so much and made so many mistakes and I’m still here. I cant go back. I cant remake decisions, I cant be braver where I should have been braver, I cant work harder where I should have worked harder. But I’ve gotten myself this far and I still hope that someday it will be better for me.
I have a lot of questions about myself right now. What do I want to do? Who do I want to be? But I dont question the way I feel about you, even after all these years.
I hope you’re doing well, and I love you.