You told me not to wait but I still am. I do not blame you for giving up on us but I am not happy about what happened or the situation or the person that lead us to be apart. Some men have shown me interest but I doubt if I will ever find a man better than you. I wonder why I put you on such a high pedestal that I do not see any other man but you. All my futile attempts of dating before and now is for you to notice that I am worth a man’s attention but that won’t bring you back anymore because you made a choice. I wish I have told you that day that I love you but I didn’t because nothing will make you stay. I know that a man is firm on his decisions and I cannot give you a normal life given my condition. I do not want it to be hard for you that I chose your happiness than mine. I can be selfish at times but you have changed that in me. I do not know if I can love any other man with the same capacity but I promise to live better and love and pray for you from afar because you are the greatest man I have ever met so far.