We had a such a great connection. As soon as we met we were so comfortable and happy, we wanted to be with each other all the time simply because we enjoyed each other’s company so much. You chased me and told me you loved me quickly, I found it hard to believe that you could love me so quickly and easily but you insisted that you did. We spent many nights just talking and cuddling, you tore down my resistances pretty quickly. We just got on so well, we are somewhat similar I suppose. it was hard though living with you as you had such a fiery temper and the littlest thing would set you off, we argued a few times but always made quickly as if nothing happened. Then you said you had to leave because of other circumstances, I had mixed emotions because you were hard to live with but I would miss our love and happiness together. This didn’t mean that you would be gone forever, you would still be around but it would never be the same. I know I would be longing for the nights that you held me in my arms and told me I was beautiful.
So eventually you started becoming distant while I was becoming more attached, one night I cried like crazy and asked you to comfort me, you saw me cry and I’m surprised I let you, this must show how much I trust and am comfortable with you. You let me cry on your shoulder.
Then the night you left, I remember not being able to feel anything I felt numb and I could sense that you felt uncomfortable with my lack of emotion. So we said our goodbyes and I watched you walk out the door, not quite taking in the seriousness of the moment, that you were basically walking out my life.
Everything we shared played over in my mind when you left and i was emotionally drained and tired. Anyway, time passed and I’ve seen you around a couple times and we stare into each others eyes and have general chit chat but that close bond we had just seems lost in time. I hate losing people I care for in my life but I guess part of growing is accepting loss and moving forward.
I don’t know if I’ll see you again but I hope so for I know I only have a short window of time to see you before I never see you again.
To those out there who may have experienced the same, when you meet someone you have a great chemistry and connection with, make the most of it, try to analyse your behaviour and avoid mistakes (even though it is hard to do sometimes), live for the moment, enjoy it with every part of your soul as you never know when it will be the last but you will forever have the precious memories to carry with you on your journey and never have any regrets, for these moments are what life is about, they made you into what you are today.