• You have no idea

    by  • February 17, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 5 Comments

    How many times I refused to answer a question about you, or reveal something I knew. I always kept it to myself, or blatantly responded that I was not going to say more. Do you want to know why? You’re friendship always mattered to me, and I never crossed a line where you couldn’t trust me. It was a tight rope walk at times, but I did my best to maintain the balance and when I held my ground it was never pushed because she knew not to. I always knew she didn’t want to mess with that either. So it bothers me that you didn’t trust me. It just feels really shitty now because you seem out of my life completely. I had no choice though, because I earned more than that. I, honest to God, tried to have a presence in your life, but I always felt shut out, because at the end of the day, that’s exactly what was happening – I was. However, I do wish you the best and hope you really are happy with where you are. But a few words of advice that I can never tell you because you will never really listen – don’t settle; don’t ever settle. You know you are. Talk to me when you’re ready. You can always trust me.

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    5 Responses to You have no idea

    1. Of Trust and stuff
      February 17, 2017 at 12:03 pm

      Trust may be viewed differently by everyone but I believe it’s safe to say that it is never a Oneway Street. If you were on a balancing act, you should ask yourself why.
      Sounds like your feelings for this one were deeper than you care to admit? If so, than why keep another? Maybe being a “presence” (whatever that means) wasn’t enough?
      True friendship is a very different kind of love in my book.
      True friendship means always forgiving also cause, let’s be honest, we are all full of faults. It’s the expectations that sets one relationship to another apart – what kind of friendship did you have? I do wonder sincerely.

      PS. Since it sounds like a VERY similar situation I went, am going, through – except I would be the one you are writing this to –
      I was the one being shut out and merely adjusted to give him peace, less to juggle and simply to try and enjoy the time we did spend together
      I am however free as a free bird can be and do as I as
      I
      please
      No settling there, looking at my priority list of happiness ..how ’bout you?
      Yeahhh, he’s still on that list and even here is no settling, I want “all” of him still, I never lied
      but he did by saying he’d never ever let me go and that he’d always keep me safe.




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    2. Nlv n
      February 17, 2017 at 1:20 pm

      I wouldn’t really call it settling but think what you will. :\




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    3. GCU
      February 17, 2017 at 1:32 pm

      You don’t actually think she was afraid of you, do you? Ha! She could destroy you. Of course, you’re too wrapped up in your narcissism to believe she’s just biding her time. Waiting for the right moment. Because revenge is a dish best served cold. If you could see how he grovels in order to keep her, your delusion that he is “settling” would crumble. Keep thinking you’re better than you are. Because the higher the pdestal you put yourself on, the longer the fall. Can’t wait.




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    4. L
      February 18, 2017 at 1:00 am

      T, do you really mean that?,what you just wrote on here. How do I know you wont turn me away? How do I know you wont reject me? How do I know you will be in that space to have me as your own? Do I even have a place in your life?




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    5. To clarify
      February 20, 2017 at 8:35 pm

      Settling doesn’t always mean that the other person is unworthy, just that it’s not what you want out of life. Your person is a gem, but not the gem you truly desire. I mean no harm, I just call it like I see it.




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