I want you to stay but i think its too late
I want you to stay and just be here by my side
I think in a perfect world that would be possible
But we live in a totally different world and you know it’s not gonna work.
I wanted you to realize that so i did my best to show you that I didn’t care
I’ve always been ahead of you. Always thinking about what could happen next.
I wanted you to forget me , to forget the feelings, the memories , the connection we both had.
So i tried to ignore you, and made sure you would stop admiring me.
But that’s the thing about love, you feel what he feels.
You cry when he cries.
You know when he’s sad, when he’s hurting.
All he knows is the pain you caused him, he does not know the reason behind it.
But you had to do it. So you did it.
The first time we meet
I didn’t notice you
I was nervous
In a room full of crowd, the first thing you would look for is something similar to you.
One day, you wake up you’re in a different world
So I did not notice you, because you look totally different from me
But you noticed me
Maybe because I’m different from you?
I was shy, you were confident
We really are a complete opposite of each other
I never fall in love easy
I don’t even like the word “fall in love”
Who knows I would feel something deeper than that
Maybe they will say “Why did not you fight for him?”
Its easier to be said than done
“I did not have enough self-esteem” that’s an easier answer
But its not just that
Its because I did not want you to change your life for me
I imagine our conversations
And nothing came up on my mind
Because we have nothing in common
Yet I don’t understand how you managed to made me feel all the emotions i thought I did not have.
Its just infatuation
I repeat that on my mind
Again and again
Maybe its his gorgeous eyes, his stupid smile or his lame joke
At first you were annoying
I told myself I don’t see myself being with someone like that for a long time
And then one time I saw your other side
For the first time, I saw how you get mad
And I thought it was funny but I was also surprised
Because outside of you’re bubbly side, you’re not embarrassed to show your ugly side
You were real
I was silent while all of them did not care
That’s how I noticed you
And that’s how I noticed you noticing me.
That was the start