We all know the song… but ask yourself this?
From one Heathen to another. Is recovery even possible at this point?
Do they just keep preying?
I think they do.
We all do in some way or another.
I used to bang my head against the wall to make the pain go away… it didn’t.
I used to try and find love through sex and teasing her and many others…
We were a crew from HELL and we loved it, per se…
Ended up in jail for domestic violence charges and hurting the one that I loved the most…
I don’t think I loved her … until I needed her.
She’s better off without me .
We laughed , we cried and she always tried to pick me up but it just didn’t work for us.. She was always picking up me when I lacked in human faith.
The best gift she ever gave me was showing me time and time again, she didn’t give up on me..
I abused her and I abused that trust she had in me. I failed her- more times than my mind will allow me to admit.
There wasn’t any real reason except for the demons in my head.. she has a dark side to her too…but it was artistic and beautiful- she always protected me.
It’s time for me to protect myself… I will always be a heathen, and maybe she will be too but I will never forget the gift she gave to me.
I look at myself now- the good and and the bad.
Do I have the power to change it and recover?
Not yet.. Still a heathen.