Almost every year for six years it’s been the one day that I’ve always dreaded. The Single Awareness Day. Lol! Does anybody else go through this or am I the only one? I did receive roses today. They were pink and they were from a girlfriend of mine (leftover flowers from Valentine’s Banquet). It brightened my day besides the endorphins I experienced after hitting hammer and chisel hard this morning.
Chocolate seemed to be the theme today, because not only did I have chocolate cake, but I had Lindt chocolate truffles too. There goes my healthy eating habits although I did have a healthy breakfast and lunch. We shall see what supper brings around.
Today is a day off so that’s the brighter side of it, but the truth is that all the posts on FB today about love and how men and women have found the love of their life, wedding pictures, kissing pictures, family pictures, romantic quotes and proposals, all of this just made me think am I missing something?
Is it not enough to be an amazing woman with lots to offer? Can’t I be happy being single? Can’t I go out and enjoy life without being bombarded with the fact that I don’t have a husband, boyfriend, fiance, or crush? Yes, I can be and do all of that without all that stuff.
But when I dig down deep. When it comes down to it the truth of the matter is that I really want to wash dishes for two. I want a double vanity with one side for a him and one side for me. I want to be annoyed when he leaves his dirty socks in the middle of the floor again or hugs me when he is all sweaty.
I want to run my hands through his hair and lay my head on his shoulder when he laughs. I want to argue one day and have great make up sex afterwards with time to just talk and be at peace when that’s over. I want to know what it’s like to look into his eyes and see my reflection and know that I’m the only one he’ll ever want.
I want a day. I want a year. I want more years living like that. I want to wake up in the morning and it be Valentine’s Day and have his lips touch mine.
Valentine’s Day. When will be my turn?