As comfortable writing what I feel on paper as a fish is out of water.
Emilie Dickenson I am not! ????
My grammar sucks donkey!
You are super accurate at grammar. So accurate when you try and suck at it, it still beats mine.????
Did you know I suffer dyslexia? My mine had trouble accepting difference between lower cases b and d until the age of 13. You know what got my mind to accept the difference? My mother came up with the idea of writing on a little piece of paper ” b do d don’t ” that I would carry in my pocket. When I got stuck in would pull the paper out and read it. She wrote that because she was letting me know a lower case b faces the word and a lower case d doesn’t. Ever since I have never failed a test. Before then I couldn’t pass a test. The reason it takes so long for my brain to accept simple facts is OCD will kick it out. It’s a mild case of ocd that I don’t even treat with medication. I will check a door 3 times to make sure it’s locked if I’m stressed. I shower sometimes 3 times a day, usually just twice, but when feeling stressed it’s 3. When I was a child it was 5 to 7 times a day, even at school. Teachers accepted this fact. It’s a simple form of ocd, but none the less it’s part of me. I’ve accepted it. The reason I am explaining this is because when I write to or about you, I feel it cheapens what I truly mean or that you don’t understand what I mean. I only write here because of desperation to communicate. Take note this letter has taken 5× the amount of time to write that it takes the average person to write. Take note I have written 15 letters since yesterday but have only posted 2 or 3 of them. The lack of vocabulary and grammar on top of dyslexia cause me to delete out of aggravation mixed with ocd.
I write because that’s what you’ve given me. I would write a lifetime if it’s all you give me. I know you won’t know this is me, for thousands of people write here who love. For all I know my wishful thinking and ocd have put you here on this site.