• Really need to get over myself

    by  • February 13, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, Yearning for You • 0 Comments

    I’m sitting here tears streaming down my face.
    Why am I back here again?
    I don’t know why I still get upset sometimes.
    But, I still think of you all of the time & wish so much that we were in contact.
    I’ve lost count of how many letters I must have put on here in the hope that you might have seen even just 1 of them.
    I don’t really know.
    I keep myself to myself more than past I guess. I feel like if I do that, then there’s a lower to no risk of being hurt again.
    But I would jump at the chance of it if it meant we would be on good terms again.
    It’s so difficult because it’s been so long yet I still feel somehow connected to you.
    Might sound like a weird thing to say, but I think you’ll know what I mean.
    I’ve always felt quite connected to you. Not a weird way, just I guess some kind of understanding way.
    I felt like you kind of picked me out when others would have walked over and passed by.

    I have to admit which you probably know anyway, but I’m not the best at dealing with certain situations. To be truthful, I act out moments that might go wrong in my head before they even happen. I’ve always done this. Sometimes it’s better than others 🙂 I try and keep positive. It’s funny though how environmental influence changes people in different ways.
    What honestly do you think of me?
    Really want to know.

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