It’s been almost two years without you and I still find myself in tears. Sometimes the idea its been so long since I was aloud to tell you I love you breaks my heart. I never thought I would spend a day of my life without you in it and here I am pushing 600 days and it still breaks my heart. I want so badly to email you this, but i am afraid you would respond. The worst part is you did not love me and you did not feel for me the way i still feel for you today. It would be a wasted e-mail. Nothing you say would cause me anything less than pain. This website is sufficient in letting me express myself but it’s not you. Nothing and no one is you. I love you Alec.