• The loneliness

    by  • February 12, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 0 Comments

    Overwhelms me. I lay here and ponder every thought, feeling, want, and need possible, because all I have is time. The void is immense, although people close, do try to fill it in their own little ways. It helps; immensely, but it doesn’t stop the longing or yearning; it’s always there. I’m grateful, that this is only temporary, but is it really? Am I kidding myself with confident fortune telling? Will you come home; will you be the same; will we be the same? I always wonder, and worry. I honestly wish I were sleeping beauty right now, and you, my prince, could wake me with a kiss on your return. I’m so tired of this already, but I will carry on. Seeing you again, gives me something to look forward to. It tests my faith and provides me with hope! Those are the positives. Tonight I closed my eyes and imagined you were beside me. It felt comforting because I could imagine your touch, and I wanted you there more than anything. Your hand on my hand was all that I asked for. No ones really touched me in forever, with the exception of the kids. It’s ok, because I know you will hug me tighter and hold me closer than ever when you can. I think of you every night as I fall asleep and imagine you are beside me. It oddly helps until I wake up in the middle of the night or early morning remembering the truth. One day you will be back home. I have to believe this. But right now, you are waking up, and I’m going to try to go to sleep. I love you.

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