• Boats and Birds

    by  • February 12, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 2 Comments

    I know you feel it. I know you do. I do not know how much you feel, or when it started, or if it stopped. But its there. This feeling. I lay awake wondering who I am to you. Why you wont let me in. How come I can not kiss you?
    Am I nothing but a few hours of your day? Every time I want you an inch closer. But all I will be in the end, is someone you see for a few hours and wish well. I want to lift you up. Give you kindness in tea cups..kiss you passionately, love you relentlessly. I want to tell you how during small unnoticeable moments how your strength has kept me going. I know you know this. I know we’d be a disaster. I know I am not someone you will probably ever want, but every day I wish I would stop doing nothing about it. Every day, I wish you loved me. But you cannot change someone from putting you at arms length. I know you feel it. I know you do.
    I wish I was something special to you.
    Every. Single. Day.
    But then, I want you to be happy, even if I am not the cause.

    2 Responses to Boats and Birds

    1. TakenIdea
      February 12, 2017 at 1:07 pm

      It’s beautiful watching the birds from a boat, isnt it?

    2. Just a girl
      February 25, 2017 at 9:21 pm

      To feel is both amazingly joyous and cruelly painful. The bliss is so wonderful, but negative feelings often follow, don’t they? Eventually? Can’t even call it a gamble if you know it’s inevitable. So what’s the point? But this is beautiful.

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