• Craving you

    by  • February 10, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 4 Comments

    I’ve got this urge to write you right now.
    How long has it been? Six, five months? I’ve lost the track, but that’s not important, is it? We don’t talk anymore.
    There’s not a second without thinking of you. I miss you..
    Although I try so damn hard not to write you, I still do.. maybe I can’t press the “send” in all the social media and maybe I can’t post you my shaky handwritten letter, but I’m still writing you, while you are in no concern of it. Perhaps, that’s good. Perhaps, not. Perhaps..
    I don’t wonder whether you think of me anymore. I know you have another life and you are happy in it. At least, I assume so. No, it can’t be other way.
    I won’t ask what happened to our team, to our dreams, to our love, to our future children, to us. We both know the answer, or maybe not.
    Sometimes, okay I admit it, every time I see a girl whose appearance is so similar to you my heart stops, I feel my eyes getting wide, my heart pumping faster, the goosebumps forming and you possessing my body. I stare, stare and observe shocked. I run after this person, your reflection, preventing you from leaving, until I realize it’s not the real you. You can’t be here. I reach out my hand to get a glimpse of you, some particles I wanna locked in.
    Dillusions. I’m living in delusions. How can this happen?
    Do you ever see anyone resembling me? What do you do?
    Do you write to me and delete the message without sending it?
    Does my ghost pays a visit in your life?
    I’m still treasuring your letters. They’re so cute, I love them. I’ve got the m&m empty package, just how can you open it like that?
    I haven’t forgotten your voice yet. How can I?!
    Every night, before going to sleep you appear beside me, embracing me with your purest love.

    How can Kiba find paradise when Cheza is gone?

    I simply miss you…


    4 Responses to Craving you

    1. Nic
      February 11, 2017 at 7:16 am

      Really well written & entirely relatable. P

      • TakenIdea
        February 12, 2017 at 2:03 pm

        It sucks, right? But it’s sweet. Oh, so sweet. This pain

    2. jessica
      February 12, 2017 at 1:06 am

      You should reach out more directly if you actually want to speak to your person…. Chances are they will never find this site. Wishing you all the best!

      • TakenIdea
        February 12, 2017 at 2:11 pm

        You see, this is not about whether the site is known or not to them. it’s about your silent connections with others. There are so many people out here, who have wrote the words I could never think of writing, who have given me a rasengan of feelings, thoughts and so much more. I truly appreaciate your attention and also Nics towards the letter I wrote. The words embraced your beings, right?
        This is exactly what it is about.

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