• My lost friend

    by  • February 1, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, Friends • 1 Comment

    I would have had more respect for you if you had straight up told me that you don’t want to deal with me again. The fact that you won’t talk to me because you have to ask for his permission is pathetic.
    He’s my ex, and he controlled me, and stopped me from talking to you, and then, he abused me because I had no one. Please don’t let him control you too.
    Please don’t ask me to understand when you couldn’t when he did this to me
    Please say you can see that he is controlling and manipulative, and just plain toxic
    You don’t know the whole story
    You don’t know how he abused me in every way possible – mentally, emotionally, physically and sexually
    He won’t tell you that. He’s not stupid. He knows you loved me, and that you still care. He won’t admit this to you because he’s not stupid. He knows you’ll kill him if you knew that. And I won’t tell anyone. I can’t. I can’t explain why I didn’t get out sooner. I can’t explain why I didn’t go and get help. I can’t admit it happened.

    I hate you for saying you miss me, and that you care, and you always will, and that you always think of me, because I feel the same.
    I love you, and I always will.
    I don’t want tonight, a night we’ve talked finally after over a year, and we’ve laughed, and we even hugged and you let a tear out… I don’t want tonight to be the end. I don’t want to go through the pain of losing you again.
    I can’t go through that pain again
    You will never get another chance at talking to me if you refuse to talk to me just because my ex won’t let you
    You’ve told me you’re your own person. Prove it. Fuck him and talk to me.
    You were my friend first
    I need you >.>

    One Response to My lost friend

    1. o.o
      March 16, 2017 at 11:24 pm


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