I created a mythos for myself in my mind. To treat the world as extensions of myself It made me feel passionate about my interactions. I started it based on that one gift too.
From then on I told myself that I was the spider queen, that I was a cartographer that could map the connections of the universe and the gifts that the people in my life gave me were bits of homage that helped me see further.
I made stories of meeting long lost friends that I’d yet met that would show me ways forward, that would burn that coal up that sullied my soul and turn me into a diamond.
My challenges and struggles were quests to develop perspective, personality, and purpose as well as skill sets.
If I looked at the world like that, like the development of the legend of me, it was then that I could shift my focus away from the things that saddened me and instead look at them as tools of development.