How long has it been?
How long will it take?
To get over or ever possibly forget the devastation?
Even if I am still struggling,
at least I am not you.
At least I am not a liar and a cheat.. that was used up and fucked over by a liar and a cheat..( wait, we actually have that in common) who by their own admission,picked your because of your lack of morals and character.
Once it was found out, you were dropped immediately.
How does that feel , to know with certainty that you never even mattered?
If you can answer that, then maybe you can come close to knowing how I felt.
As if you care..
At first I was blindsided by the person who told me how great things were, how I was their fantasy, by all the sex, all the time.
So that when I found out about his many fuckbuddies, who were also married, I obviously could not understand. Especially after having met you! I could not see how he could find anything about you attractive. But he has recently admitted that he didn’t find you attractive, just easy and easily duped. Just like the others. It is strange to hear how ashamed he is of his involvement with you. I mean, of course he has regrets about being an adulterer, but he is also ashamed of your looks and poisonous personality. One of the hardest things he had to do, was tell all the company people that his wife was right in her assumption, that he had an affair with you. Their reaction was, shock and disgust. It was easy for him to get on your good side. All he had to do was listen to you ramble on about your life, your many complaints, engage in bitchy, backstabbing, gossiping behavior, and viola, next thing you know.. soulmates. Literally fucking soulmates! Still, I am not the one eavesdropping on someone else’s relationship, making fun of their problems, capitalizing on every weakness, kissing up to the wife out of guilt, when faced with a friendly office visit. Or, rudely ignoring them because you can’t face the guilt of looking at someone that you are destroying with your actions. Someone who has never done a thing to you. You can lie to yourself and say, I deserved it, that everyone cheats, I didn’t appreciate what I had, whatever B.S. gets you through. At the end of the day, or month,or year, you know the truth. Nobody deserves to be treated like that! It doesn’t matter what kind of justification you try to reconcile it with. At the end of the day, when you look in the mirror, you see what you are. That’s what gets me through. I am not you! Even though I have been used and taken advantage of, I would not do the same to another human. I could not live with the lies you do. It is ironic that woman like you,continue to live your little lives out, only by the kindness and descretion of the people who you didn’t show any compassion. On any given day, I could call your husband, or any number of others and tell the the truth about you. Live with that knowledge and enjoy your lie of a life. You are no different than the countless pathetic others on this site who cling and clamor on the sidelines believing whatever it takes to keep them in their role of, side whore. The ones who end up with only regrets.
How long has it been?