Dreamt of you last night, it always feels so real when I do. Woke up to my heart breaking yet again as it has over the past 15 years…
We were all together the old gang but as adults now all still friends having a blast in Vegas. I can remember all the details, all the feelings, the feel of your lips on mine, the feeling of being held in your arms, the feeling in my heart that finally things were going to end up like they should, like you would never leave, I finally felt contentment in my heart, I finally felt, like really felt, my emotions have been turned off for so long I felt like they were back.
I don’t understand how I can still dream of you after all this time we haven’t spoken in years and yet you still invade my dreams. Not all the time but at the most unexpected times.
I cut all contact with you awhile ago even to the point of deleting you off my social media, hoping it would help and it did, for a bit.
But obviously not forever, why do you haunt me so?