• To the guy I thought I loved,

    by  • January 2, 2017 • * Safe for Work *, Closure • 0 Comments

    Dear V.R.
    I thought that I loved you, I thought that you loved me too but I was wrong. Our relationship meant a lot to me at the time but now that I look back at it I don’t think I ever loved you, and I don’t think you ever loved me, you literally never told me you loved me but I stayed with you for almost 3 years. Because I thought I loved you, I thought you were the one, boy was I wrong. I tried to make you fall in love with me by being the best girlfriend I could be, by spoiling you as much as I could but nothing worked. Even though there were times where I really thought you loved me, it wasn’t enough . I understand that you aren’t an affectionate person but for most of our relationship you never kissed me, not passionately anyways, we barely had sex and when we did it wasn’t passionate or romantic. We did have some good times but now I kind of regret spending soooo much time wasted on you. I did learn a lot from our relationship though, I learned what I need and want in a relationship and I learned how to never settle for anything less than I deserve. I don’t know if I hate you or not now, I know that you hate me because I told you I cheated on you, but I had my reasons. You never touched me, you didn’t please me and I was unhappy. I’m sorry that I cheated on you I should just have broken up with you but at the time I didn’t want to lose you because I thought I loved you. I’m sorry for what I did. But I do wish the best for you and hope you can find someone who will make you happy someone you will truly love.

    Love, the ex who regrets trying to love a guy who is unlovable

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