I meant well. I didn’t want what happened to happen. I didn’t want to get hit with whatever feelings. You see, I have to make myself hate you in order to keep my distance. “Hate” isn’t the right word, actually. I just have to convince myself that my path is the correct one. I could never really hate you. That’s why I feel so pathetic. If you contacted me today and needed my help, I’d be there in a heartbeat! What a schmuck!