My life is a routine again. I thought if I moved things would be different. It isn’t and I watch my life from a outside perspective. We have been together off and on for years. I know him like the back of my hand. I care about him but I don’t think I really could love any one. He doesn’t know me. My randomness he finds entertaining. But I still want more. All my relationships have always moved fast with out the dating so much. With the guy always telling me I am Miss Perfect. I end up doing everything and I am use to it. A care giver as ever. I just feel like I need more. I want the romance. Does it really even exist? Do soul mates exist? Should I just settle? There’s no fighting or arguing. I love that part. Why am I not happy? I know we all have these thoughts. My walls stay up. Maybe that is my problem.?. I am not looking for a responses per say as much as putting my thoughts out there.