I have fallen so completely and painfully in love, and you have done the opposite. Funny how that happens. I didn’t realize I had never loved before until I met you. You’re everything I’ve ever wanted and then some. You are my love, my life, my peace, my serenity, and my home. I think about our broken future that was once so bright and I die a little inside. You’ve broken me, and I’ve broken you. Two stubborn people who don’t know how to swallow their pride are a match made for disaster. I wish I could change the way our story went, however maybe it still would’ve ended the same. The way you look at me now compared to the way you used to look at me is so different. You used to make me feel like the happiest girl in the world, and now I just feel used and worthless. My mind is constantly fluttering back and forth between whether you still even love me or not. You are the war in my mind. I wish there was a way for us to somehow get back to where we were, but I know that the damage is done, and it’s taken a toll on the both of us.
Since you’ve left, all I can think about is dying. There’s this pain lingering all throughout my body, and an aching in my heart. Every time I close my eyes I see you, and our mess; and it makes me want to die. I am worthless. I am nothing. I am not the person I want to be. And I am not yours anymore.
You are not mine anymore.
And that makes me want to die.
the love that broke us both