• Inescapable

    by  • December 5, 2016 • To You • 4 Comments

    God damn it why is it so hard to get away from these feelings i have for you? i know i absolutely should not feel the way i do. it’s dangerous and stupid and shameful but i can’t help it when you’re just so sweet and kind and caring. i really hate you sometimes for being so.. i also really hate myself for feeling what i do, although at least i can’t fully blame myself. you’re not helping! i want you to stop yet the other side of me wishes it never stops and only gets better from here.. what is my life? why do i bother when i know that the only outcome will be heartbreak yet again.
    You make me smile and laugh so much and you make my heart flutter sometimes with even just the little things. i hate and love this -,-

    4 Responses to Inescapable

    1. Ditto
      December 5, 2016 at 7:23 pm

      I can relate. It’s bittersweet..

    2. Heartshards
      December 6, 2016 at 11:55 am

      “I hate you. I love you. I hate that I love you. Don’t want to, but I can’t put nobody else above you.”

    3. Billy Fuckin' Idol
      December 7, 2016 at 6:43 pm

      I’ve read this a few times wondering if it is you, with a parallel questioning of whether or not that even matters. I’m good at separating the two worlds, reacting to you in the moment and accepting every flirtation as it comes. It’s hard to let go of you when we hug.

      You know what? It probably doesn’t matter. I’m excited to see you again either way. Isn’t love grand.

    4. @billy idol
      December 9, 2016 at 3:52 pm

      Are you the author? Or are you talking to the author?

      Either way, if you were my person, I’d respond with: I only said I hate that song because of you. I lied, I don’t hate it. I avoid it. And it freaked me out you playing it the very night I posted those lyrics here. I force myself to rip away when we hug. You do make me nervous, but I can’t admit that. I’m always excited to see you!

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