Yes, I know I am fucking crazy. But hey, isn’t that one of the things you loved about me?
You are probably wondering, why now, after such a very long time?
Because I am fucking tired of being away from someone I loved to strongly.
Because I never stopped thinking of you or lost the feeling of being in love with you.
Because I am fucking tired of being a liar in my life.
Because I am tired of being alone.
I know my chances of being with you are like .0000000000000000000000001%.
I don’t care, I have to try.
If you hate me because of how I handled myself back then with you, screwing it all up, I am sorry and hope you can forgive me.
I have the feeling that something else was the actual road block back then, but I will not know unless you tell me.
If you already have a person, tell me. I will stop.
If you have personal obstacles that embarrass you, trust me and tell me.
I just do not know what I could have said back then or what I can say now to make you understand that I am a safe person to communicate anything to.