• How long will I love you?

    by  • November 21, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, Confession • 6 Comments

    Mr O:

    You’re my guilty secret, my fantasy even. I do wonder if you know how I feel about you? And if you do, what would you do? And do you feel the same…?

    I don’t want to risk you knowing my feelings, but at the same time I wish to shout out to the world how I feel about you!

    I can’t forget you, hard as I try. I have failed miserably in my attempt to forget you. It is an impossible situation and it just breaks my heart and torments my mind every single day. I have so many unanswered questions like: do you feel the same about me as I feel about you? If circumstances were different, would we have a chance to be together? But, do I dare to hear the truth if the truth is not what I am wishing for? That I wish you cared about me as much as I do about you??

    I have waited and waited for you to contact me, and truth be told, am still waiting every day. And hoping that you will. I know it is unrealistic – who am I to demand your attention? I am not in the right situation to ask anything from you. But, if it matters even a little, it does brighten up my day to hear from you, albeit a short line or two.

    It has been 11 days now without a text from you; the longest previously was 19 days. I am insane to keep waiting and hoping for something that might never even happen, but I can’t help it.

    Against my will, I am still waiting. And hoping… <3


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    6 Responses to How long will I love you?

    1. Mr o
      November 21, 2016 at 12:00 pm

      I’m Mr O. Are you my T? How about a date that matters to us?


    2. T
      November 22, 2016 at 3:07 pm

      Are you my Mr O? I wish you were. I wish Mr O and I can properly get to know each other, and start ‘sharing the night together’.


    3. @T
      December 4, 2016 at 1:42 pm

      Out of all the days of the year, these two numbers have much meaning to me. Both waiting & hoping yet forgetting her is near impossible. I’m realistic about this situation. Being someone’s secret is another thing.


      • Mr O
        December 6, 2016 at 5:54 pm

        12/4…if those are the numbers, they mean nothing to me. Of course, my memory doesn’t serve me well these days anyway. How about that one word that we both know, special in meaning?


    4. T
      December 5, 2016 at 12:25 pm

      What are those numbers if I may ask..?


      • Dan
        April 20, 2018 at 11:15 am

        Are you still here?



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