You’re my guilty secret, my fantasy even. I do wonder if you know how I feel about you? And if you do, what would you do? And do you feel the same…?
I don’t want to risk you knowing my feelings, but at the same time I wish to shout out to the world how I feel about you!
I can’t forget you, hard as I try. I have failed miserably in my attempt to forget you. It is an impossible situation and it just breaks my heart and torments my mind every single day. I have so many unanswered questions like: do you feel the same about me as I feel about you? If circumstances were different, would we have a chance to be together? But, do I dare to hear the truth if the truth is not what I am wishing for? That I wish you cared about me as much as I do about you??
I have waited and waited for you to contact me, and truth be told, am still waiting every day. And hoping that you will. I know it is unrealistic – who am I to demand your attention? I am not in the right situation to ask anything from you. But, if it matters even a little, it does brighten up my day to hear from you, albeit a short line or two.
It has been 11 days now without a text from you; the longest previously was 19 days. I am insane to keep waiting and hoping for something that might never even happen, but I can’t help it.
Against my will, I am still waiting. And hoping… <3