I need to say some things. I wish I could do so in person but you made it clear that it was far too upsetting to talk the last time I saw you.
I don’t know any more what you felt. I’ve shared our story many times as I searched for the reason why. Friends and therapists all can only agree that I’ll never know the truth.
Did you love me? I know I loved (and still love) you.
No one made me feel like you did when I saw your smile. The way your face lit up in happiness mad life seem a lovely thing.
It was so hard to hold back out of respect for you. The time I almost kissed you is forever burned in my memory…I regret not kissing you and always will.
life has been hell since i saw that look in your lovely eyes….
To answer your question. Yes my love….you were my favorite. I’d give anything for your embrace one more time