• It hurts so bad.

    by  • November 16, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, Heartbreak • 2 Comments

    Hi my love. I promised not to write to you again. Maybe I’m just inspired, because I am listening to my favorite Brahms piece, the one that I used to listen when I was feeling intensely in love with you. You hurt me really bad. And I can´t believe that I just let a tear trickle down my cheek for you. I promised to be strong. And I am doing my best. I am still holding on to the good memories, the ones that might have been real, or might have been just another of your acts. I don’t hate you. You made me really happy. I just feel bad for you, because you are stuck in a world of lies. I really hope you find the courage to change.
    I can´t imagine how you must’ve felt after me leaving. I saw you sleeping after seeing all those terrible messages you sent to the many girls. I averted myself from your frail, sleeping body, and walked away, never looking back. I knew that after four long years, I deserved better. I really thought I was going to marry you. I really hope I never see you again.


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    2 Responses to It hurts so bad.

    1. @author
      November 17, 2016 at 5:03 am

      Nothing wrong with thinking you deserve better. I do hope you find what you seek for. It all boils down to your happiness and I want that for you, even if you don’t find it in me. I speak total truth when I say this. What you say in this letter really isn’t anything new when it comes to how you feel about me. You’ve made it clear I’m just not enough. If I had been enough we would still be in contact. I don’t blame you for feeling the way you do. I still love you more than words can say. I miss you like no other.


    2. November rain
      November 17, 2016 at 3:44 pm

      I can relate. Stay strong my friend.



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