• Love makes no sense at all!

    by  • November 14, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 6 Comments

    Seven years and in a way longer even…
    We have been *whatever* for seven years. Almost every day, in a way, truly every single day.

    I had shared so much with you – highs, lows, desperation, happiness, longing, confusion, passion, my body, my soul, my hopes, my life, things I shared with nobody, my everything. I gave you my love and more, I gave you – me

    You had shared so much with me too – highs, lows, desperation, happiness, longing, confusion, passion, your body, hopes, things you shared with nobody. You gave me love – yet carefully never yourself.

    Regardless, we shared a bond unlike I ever thought possible.

    Happy and fun times, utter ease of letting the world go just being you and I, there were so so many.

    Through the pain we gave each other, through all the pain you voiced I had put you through, I don’t think you ever realized..

    Back behinds my walls of self I had to come to doubting everything we ever had. Doubting you, doubting myself, doubting love, common sense, sanity – life, trust and what once I believed so firmly in.

    Though my face shows strength, my lips a smile of cynical confidence, my public posture holds others save and I keep busy to forget. Not to forget you because that is quite impossible, no, to forget thinking further than I absolutely have to.

    All of my life I have been running, been real good at it, too. Been real good at letting go and forgetting or at least shoving emotions into the depth of “never to be thought of again”.
    Now I am facing a problem – I don’t know where to run to nor what I have been running for or from ..

    It makes no sense at all that I love and miss you so, still.

    6 Responses to Love makes no sense at all!

    1. Emcee
      November 16, 2016 at 1:20 am

      What do you think (s)he never realized what? You speak beautifully vivid.

    2. @ Emcee
      November 16, 2016 at 1:49 pm

      interesting you name you have there..
      Thank you kindly for enjoying my scribble and to answer your question, somewhat at least – let’s just say I am making a fool of myself, to myself, which I believe, is worse than being a fool to the world.
      He probably doesn’t realize many o’ things, one of which being, how much I miss him and wish he would have given us at least a chance .

    3. K
      November 17, 2016 at 5:06 am


    4. @K
      November 25, 2016 at 9:39 am

      Tell him/her outside of LINS

    5. K
      November 29, 2016 at 4:19 am

      He doesn’t want to know, it’s over. So sad, we tried our best but it was all shades of fucked up. Still I miss him. I would love for him to contact me, but I know he wont. 🙁

    6. author
      December 8, 2016 at 11:26 am

      Best wishes to you, both.
      From one Stranger to Others

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