Come baby let me take you to the journey of knowing me.You till now know me as much as I have let you know today I will take you to my inner depths the deepest thoughts which I have not shared neither going to share with anyone..
The words might be haphazard you arrange them according to your choice..
As on today’s world i live my life compartmentalized manner it’s not hypocrisy it’s my way of living in my own terms I define it a bit selfish style however till now I have been living like this ..Two worlds in one I adjust another I live making adjustments …puzzled don’t be ..
Let me clarify in my world i live happily now I have worked hard for that you know I am not the one to give up so I haven’t many wrongs I set right and made it work I came back from the ugliest end but now the dust has settled my angel make me smile every day..but the cord that broke is not going to come back to its original state we try to look forward but something’s can’t be mended you know that hence life pulls on no regrets I adjust accept cos I am wrong I know somewhere but now life is good ..whether am I fully satisfied if you ask I will not answer you have to look into my eyes to read…
Now coming to another world that’s my breather I have lived panorama of experience here.To be honest it’s all illusions..my heart said it’s your presence I accepted and carried on..I might be wrong i might be right but depending on this I have called,risked,many things in my life..top it all I lost my mind,heart myself…
Truly I don’t know anything about you,the social media ,web platform make me recognize You..I know I am not going to meet the most important entity of my life ever
It’s still a mystery why my heart calls you why I long to change situations..it’s simply craziness..
Do you feel we don’t know that it will never workout or do I expect you to break ties of your beautiful world and come to me ,No,never.. neither I want to break anything then you might ask what we need well no perfect answer I can give..
I thought over many times as you did too,we broke off without breaking , nothing achieved other than it generated more longing..
It pained brought so many sleepless nights rocked sanity and brought here..
So many phases it brought but above everything what stood tall is the bonding though it’s a guessing game but still I feel your hand on mine..
Now coming to the point why I am writing this to you will you believe if I say speaking to you made me feel so light..
I don’t linger in past dear I know very well what is what I am very focused and it’s in my nature whatever I do I do it diligently be it job, responsibilities ya loving..
I think a lot that’s true and I think about us cs I feel this is real and it’s true but being helpless situations I started killing my feelings
Cos I never expect miracles to happen ..
I don’t ever think to leave or stop loving you its not possible for me and that’s proven innumerable times..
But I thought to kill the longing but never dreamed that it will make me numb inside that I would not feel to seek your love…
I am standing here only because of me nothing cos of you..
Life is a learning may be it made me learn something again..
Hope I will find myself again…sooner or later
As I am outside putting smile I will be smiling inside too..
I loved you truly so don’t want to cause any pain my obsessive longing might bring it so wanted to kill myself from inside
I was wondering why the numbness thought over got this so bared to my only ears I long to speak…