I have to keep reminding myself that he never looked back. He never reached out. Because of these this, I should not reach out to him. I should not remind him of me. He didn’t love me. He told me so. He said the exact words. Why do I have this delusional hope…? His actions speak volumes. He even said the words. So many years and I wait, stupidly. I must NOT reach out to him. The holidays are here again and I miss you dearly. I can only hope that one day I am relieved of this feeling of loss. Once day soon I hope.