Understand. I know you wouldn’t have hurt me purposefully. I know why you did what you did. I know circumstances had you make the decision. I know you have been hurt a lot in your past by people, including myself. I do understand your trust issues and why they are. I know your self esteem is very low. Being hurt a lot can do that to a person. I hate the thought of people hurting you. I hate the thought of me have hurting you. It kills me inside. When I would look into your eyes (OMG) I saw the most beautiful person/soul I’ve ever seen. I can’t explain it. I could stare into those eyes forever. I can understand you not trusting me. I can understand you protecting yourself. I want you to know that I am truly here for you. I would like for you to trust me and know that I wouldn’t hurt you for the world. I know that’s going to take time. I know you may never trust me. I will still be here for you even if you never trust me. I’m on your side. I may not have been a good influence on you. I have influenced you into things you would have probably never have done if it wasn’t for me. I do carry guilt over that because it has hurt you in many ways. All I can do is ask your forgiveness. I wish you were a part of my life, but maybe that’s selfish of me. Maybe you are better without me. I miss you terribly. I do believe we were meant to meet. Maybe we were just passing ships. I can only hope our chapter isn’t over, but then again I know we don’t always get what we want. I do want you to know that my time with you has been some of the best times I’ve ever had. I am so blessed and honoured to have met such a beautiful, loving woman. I will never shut my door on you. You are welcome in my life always, but I want it to be in your time and because you want to be. I know that time may never happen and I accept that. Just know you always have someone in your corner and your never alone in this world, even if you feel you are.
I love you more than any words can say. I do hope you know that.