I’m sorry. I’m sorry I offended you. I’m sorry I questioned you. I’m sorry if you felt threatened by me. I’m sorry if you feel like I was impending on your freedom of speech. I’m sorry I cursed at you or even called you names. I’m sorry I disagreed with you publicly, in front or your friends and family. I’m sorry I embarrassed you. I’m sorry I made you question yourself. I’m sorry I outsmarted you. I’m even sorry I sassed back at your mothers, who came to protect you from my awful behavior these past few months. I’m sorry.
But I’m also completely kidding.
I’m actually not sorry at all. I apologize a lot, along with a lot of women in this world. I apologize for things I have nothing to do with sometimes. But I am fully aware of the attitude, aggressiveness, and annoyance I have put on a lot of people during this political campaign… and I am NOT sorry.
Let me tell you a story. Of a girl who didn’t make a big deal out of the “little things” guys say, the jokes made, and the moves pulled. I was the girl that was just one of the guys. I was the girl who laughed at the jokes. Even egged them on at times.
Until it wasn’t funny anymore.
It’s not funny once you’ve been raped in the back room at a party by someone you know. It’s not funny once you realize how many friends knew you were in that room, with him, and didn’t stop it. It’s not funny when you feel it was your fault for years because you were drunk and weren’t able to say no. It’s not funny that you don’t take your own pain seriously until ANOTHER women comes to you for help because she experienced something similar and is in the same pain you’ve felt for years but couldn’t understand. It’s not funny when you never actually realize it was sexual assault until you finally crash and burn in a bon fire of anger that you’ve never felt before. And even when you finally realize your pain, and the pain of others around you… it will still never be funny. Because healing from a mental wound doesn’t happen, you just learn to coup with it.
Donald Trump is the poster child for rape culture. And I can not express in words the helplessness I feel knowing he is a possibility for this country. My heart can no longer handle the jokes, language, and actions from this man. And I’ve been silent for a very long time about my anger, and helplessness, and sadness, and everything else for so damn long. So now. I’m not being silent.
We are told not to make it a big deal. We are told it is our fault. We are told that the jokes are funny and to just laugh. We are told and told and told and told by society what the rules are and I’m done being told what to do.
SO NOW I AM TELLING YOU.
Rape culture is real. Rape is not the victims fault. And Donald Trump is a fucking piece of shit.
And I will tell everyone. I will tell everyone that posts a stupid meme. I will tell everyone that shares a stupid article. I will tell every trump supporter from now until November fucking 8th just how much of a piece of shit they are.
I will condemn every Christian that praises a loving God and preaches about the good but is voting for a man like Trump.
I will condemn every republican for sticking by him because your damn gun views are more important than his repulsiveness.
I will condemn every moron redneck that swears by being a southern gentlemen and then makes memes about a man getting away with sexual assault because he is a star.
I will condemn every Trump supporter for not condemning Trump.
I hate you all. I hate you, and I will not be silent about it. I hate you and your wrong and I will tell you that you’re wrong. I will correct your ignorance and lies. I will continue to spread and promote the truth.
When you fight back about Her emails, I will continue to send you links to the case in which she was found guilty AND articles of past men deleting thousands of emails as well. I will link you the proof of other political figures using private servers and doing a lot worse at that. Including trump.
When you fight back saying she killed military in the Benghazi case I will continue to send you links to actual evidence that made her not guilty to the case. I will link you to other cases in which OTHER MEN (again) had the SAME occurrences under their watch and no one was brought upon charges. Because when soldiers die under a man, they were the cost of war. But when under a woman, she just must have failed.
When you fight back because she doesn’t support the coal industry, I will tell you the coal industry is dying anyway because our earth is dying and we need to find other sources of energy.
When you fight back saying climate change is not real… first I will personally find your location and slap you in the fucking face… then I will continue to make you look horribly stupid as I give evidence after evidence proving you wrong.
When you fight back about your guns, I will continue to tell you that NO ONE is trying to take them away. I will copy links to Clintons website on her gun law REFORM. Because then 2nd amendment was written when one shot was fired every 8 seconds and now 8 people can be killed in eight seconds. I will share the video of the 8 year old boy who was shot on the playground by a 14 year old boy. That 8 year old boy had a super hero funeral. I’ll show you the funeral link too, where his mother had to be carried to her son because she was so distraught.
And if you fight back about other things, will look them up and I will EDUCATE MYSELF on the manner. I will look into every detail of your rebuttal and I will form a dramatic argument against you. Because in the end, there is NO WAY that Trump will ever come out on top.
So be angry with me for being outspoken. I don’t care. Because at this point, I don’t care if I change your mind or win your vote away from Trump, because I know that is helpless. My only goal is to prove you wrong.
All my anger has been locked inside for so long and trump has released it. I can’t explain the way my heart hurts; I cry at the thought of someone like him representing me. And I know that’s a personal problem because in my mind, Trump symbolizes my assaulter. Trump is him. Trump is every cruel man. And in my logical mind I know that’s not true. I know he is not the boy who raped me. But in my hurt, spinning brain… Trump is my nightmares. Trump is the reason I have to take sleeping medication. Trump is the reason I doodle in class when the topic of male superiority or any kind of power struggle comes up, because I’ve felt powerless for years and I can’t take it anymore.
If that makes me a bitch, so be it.