I do not want my husband to feel inadequate or emasculated by saying I want to experience a little bit of S&M culture.
Though in our brief talks he gave the impression of not seeming to mind if it was something that was talked about or agreed upon in advance. I speak privately with my friend who thinks it could be a very liberating experience if we are able to communicate fairly.
But my thoughts fret. Speaking of a subject like that vaguely and asking permission to participate are two separate things. Would the act of asking cause him to have a sullied image of me? Would he also want something for himself. I think..I could ask him to participate in a threesome with a woman but would that be enough?
I do not want him to falter to ever doubt my love and respect for him or our family . I do not want him to seek the comforts I provide elsewhere because I somehow made him feel like he wasn’t enough because I wanted to go experience a particular dynamic I know hes not comfortable taking with me and to be honest I’m glad , but is still wanting it a fault in me for not being wholly content or could it really be something that provide beneficial qualities to our current bond.