I can’t figure it out, I am at a total loss.
I now KNOW what we felt, but I do not know why it never happened.
I am figuring out that you did not want it to happen.
But I don’t understand why, and you won’t speak about it.
I can handle anything you say, I need to know.
Our love was never allowed to move forward and our friendship ended.
It is almost like you are protecting me, but from what.
I know you secretly love me, but that’s all I know.
I think of all the reasons you would protect me from you.
Intimacy issues, Lier, Cheater, Whore, self hatred, what happened when you were a kid, who knows.
I always thought it was a mistake made by us out of fear and unknown, but I am not so sure anymore.
I guess I will never know……