• For Dr. D.

    by  • October 26, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, Friends • 3 Comments

    If you ever happen to stumble across this, you will remember this nickname. It’s what I used to call you, long before we became an item. I feel the need to tell you this, because I’m quite certain that we will never spend any length of time, in each other’s presence, again. Congrats on your marriage.

    I truly am sorry. I’ve many regrets; the biggest was losing your trust. The temporary alcoholism was bad. My diagnosis and inability to do much of anything certainly didn’t help. What’s important though, is that I told you (then) that I would understand, if you no longer wanted to be in a relationship with me; because of my chronic illness. And I didn’t follow through with that promise. It was sincere, but unfortunately, I said it during a time of my life when my mouth opened before considering what was going to come out of it.

    To tie it up: I want for you to know that I forgive you. How much I would LOVE to have a glass of unsweetened tea with you, and talk about the good times; most BEFORE we got together. Know that what I have endured in my last relationship (since ours) was FAR worse. I’ve done penance with the woman who is STILL the love of my life. I couldn’t hold on to her either, so it’s looking like it’s going to be me, myself, and I…for the rest of my days. I hope that you find this, and reach out to me, L. Your friendship was far more valuable than anything else I ever had with you. And I am thirsty for an engaging discussion.

    Sincerely,
    AJ

    3 Responses to For Dr. D.

    1. This?
      October 27, 2016 at 12:07 am
    2. Due to my own condition
      October 27, 2016 at 9:05 am

      May I have your assurances that at no point in time will you hold hostile intentions towards your ward (myself ) or anyone in my circle? Ill intentions will never under any circumstances affect your judgement towards the well being of your ward or their circle outside of services agreed upon.

    3. We must also
      October 27, 2016 at 9:35 am

      Attend to the health and mental well being of ourselves for our self and circle.

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