• Dear head and heart

    by  • October 24, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, Dating • 0 Comments

    Dear head and heart,

    How many times do I have to let other people break my heart and mess with my head until I learn? Learn not to open up or let people in.

    I’m 19 and I’ve got a heart that welcomes everyone and anyone. I like to think of myself as kind and friendly with a couple rough edges but the more I try to love, the rougher those edges get.

    My flaws include:

    Things that for most people, lead to a happy life but for me only cause pain and heartache. At what point do I give up on hope and stop listening to the comments like ‘you’ll find someone’ and ‘you deserve better’. There is only so many times you can get cheated on or messed about before all those hard edges surround you and at 19, I should not be fast approaching that point. I may. It be the only one but being disregarded repeatedly is the loneliest feeling there is. I’m a giver, making others happy gives me joy so why is it that nobody ever gives back to me? Maybe they look at me and think ‘she is happy enough’ but it’s all a mask. The joy I feel is only ever temporary because I’ve never had someone care enough to try and smooth out the rough edges surrounding my heart or help create order to the mess in my head.

    All people do is take and I have not much more to give without losing myself and all that I value. I don’t want to become heartless all I want is to be loved as much a a hear will allow.

    Is that too much?

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