• Dear T

    by  • October 21, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, Love - Pure and Simple • 3 Comments

    I miss you. I love you. I wish you were mine. I love you. This not having you in my life scares the hell out of me. I love you. I don’t want to lose you. I love you. I need you. I love you. I am miserable. I love you. I am without my compass. I love you. I am losing my grip on life. I love you. I am sorry. I love you.


    3 Responses to Dear T

    1. @author
      October 22, 2016 at 11:02 am

      I love you way more than you believe I do. I wish I was enough for you to stay with me.

      You don’t think us getting together to see what we have is a good idea? We can go slow. We can be the best of friends and then see where it goes. I don’t want you to feel obligated to anything else. Are you worried about the change physically that has occurred during your life changes.

      I want you to realize that looks isn’t what I fell in love with. Yes your look was something that caught my eye and made me want to get to know you better, but when I got to know your personality and some of your inner self, that’s when I fell in love with you. I know what I say doesn’t make sense, but its truth. You could be bald and no teeth and super short with a limp and I would still be very much in love with you. I’ve changed since we haven’t spoke. I’ve gained weight and quite a few wrinkles in the face. This situation has taken its toll on me as well. I don’t worry about you seeing me. I may be a little insecure about it just because I’m not physically what I was when we met, but I know you love me. I know your love goes deeper than physical attraction. Same with me to you. I do care what you think. Don’t get me wrong. Its because I want ro make you happy. I want to be attractive for you. Is it that your financially strapped? So. We can have lots of fun without a bunch of money. What money we would need I have. I dont have a bunch of money, but we would be able to support ourselves with it. Money would be tight, but we both know you and I could handle that. Neither one of us are materialistic. We would build finances slowly and have fun along the way. A part of me says you will never take that final reach for open communication because you wouldnt want to chance getting hurt. Who knows maybe you have already moved on. Maybe you never plan on truly reconciling.

      I know one thing. If we are miserable without each other in our lives then why don’t we be apart of each others lives? We aren’t promised tomorrow. Something could happen to either one of us and the other would be upset they didn’t make the best of the time they would’ve had. I know I would. I would be happier with you in my life. Best friend or lover we would figure it out together. Just text me “hello?” And I will take the lead. You closed communication so you have to take the step to open it. I refuse to open a door you shut. Out of respect I have for you.

      Yours Truly
      Me (EM)

    2. author
      October 23, 2016 at 3:52 am

      Dear EM, unfortunately I am not the one youre looking for. I am a girl and this is for the man I love. I hope one day everything works out for the both of us. Take carem

    3. @author
      October 24, 2016 at 7:04 pm

      No worries. I figured as much. When I reply to a letter I don’t assume its my person anymore. I just reply as a way to vent what I would say had they written to me the letter. I have learned long ago not to reply hoping for a reply. I have also learned not to write letters hoping for reply. This is just a site for venting, nothing more. With that being said, I do hope the woman I was venting about is in love and is being loved the way she deserves. I accepted my place with her long ago…. She’s made it clear long ago. I hope her pure bliss. I have accepted I wasn’t enough. Whoever has her heart now is very blessed and I envy them 🙂 .

      You take care as well! <3

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