• Still

    by  • October 15, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 0 Comments

    I saw you recently and you looked splendid with your new look. Right then and there it all came back to me at once.. my palms got sweaty, my heart started beating uncontrollably, i could feel my face blushing, i stopped breathing as if…scared that you’d notice the effect you still have on me, after all these years. All those feelings I’ve worked so hard to ignore, suppress, kill and buried, they all came back to life the minute i saw you. I hate it, i hate this hold you have on me. I hate that after all that’s been said between us i still think of you daily. I still look for you in the mixed words of strangers, in faces down the street, in cars passing me by. i still think of you before falling asleep. I still, somehow entertain the pathetic idea that I wasn’t wrong and that maybe it wasn’t all a figment of my imagination.
    I wanted us to be so much more than what we became. I fell for an illusion that you shattered over and over again with the way you behaved towards me, the things you said about me..the things you never told me you hurt me so badly. Hate you for breaking me heart and for being engraved in my mind and refusing to leave..

    0 Responses to Still

    1. .
      October 15, 2016 at 4:26 pm

      I wish knew you broke mine & and for all this, you were the cause of shattered dreams we shared together.

      We were one & we both experienced something special…

      I always whisper your name maybe one day you hear it

    2. Paddlethis
      October 15, 2016 at 6:57 pm

      I have this same problem with a man. Sad really. Though I’ve left the situation. I couldn’t deal.

    3. Feel u .. Same here
      October 17, 2016 at 2:22 am

      Feel the same.. It feels horrible to let someone have such a hold on us and it feel hobbile that we let them treat us so badly. If they were to co!e back we let them walk over us again. It ismjust with this one person I feel so weak . Blineded by insane intoxication I trust n start beliveling every word said by em only to be abandoned again . forget about them life is better without arse like em.

    4. Figment Of My Own Imagination
      October 17, 2016 at 9:46 am

      If this was true, which its not whoever you are, those key words that don’t ring true mean the “I” are what? Their character? Prove it? Not with words.

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