Been a completely selfish person. Here you are going through life changes and I have been thinking about my selfish wants. I am soooo sorry. From the bottom of my heart to the top of it. Instead of writing care and concern I’ve been writing letters as a scorned lover. I want to be a person you can lean on and come to before anything else. I want you to know I am here for you. I’m sorry for putting pressure on you when its the last thing you need right now. I just so much want us to be a part of each others lives. I have caused you pain and I wish you knew how unintentional it is. I love you so much I feel I would do anything to protect you. I would give my own life to protect you. I mean that with all that is in me. I have never loved as I love you before. I’m not just talking about lover love. I’m talking about genuine unconditional love. I don’t know why I love you the way I do, all I know is I do. I hate that I’ve caused you pain. This isn’t a letter that is going to plea for you to open a door. I love you so much that door doesn’t exist. I can love you near or far, door or no door. I do believe we were meant to meet. I do believe we are soulmates. What kind I’m not sure. I am truly,deeply, and regretfully sorry for being selfish and for hurting you in our situation. I hope you will find it in your heart to forgive me. I want you to know that I am here for you and always will be. If you ever decide to open the door. I will be on the other side, arms wide open. If you decide not to open the door. I want you to know I am on the other side loving you through it. You are my favoritest person in this whole world. You are absolutely fascinating and I hope I get to learn more of you. If I don’t then I can still feel blessed to have allowed to learn so much of you. You are my girl. My one and only ever for ever never replaceable girl.
I want you to do me a favor. I want you to right now shut your eyes take a deep breath and picture my arms wrapping around you tightly. Now stay like that until my next letter posts. Because I’m sure if I were hugging you in person I wouldn’t be able to let go. You would have to pry me off with a crow bar. Lol. I miss those red lashes!
Love you sweetheart!