• Princess

    by  • October 3, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, Yearning for You • 3 Comments

    I miss you, and I so desire you,
    even after all this time and pain,
    without a doubt you are the one I have fallen for.

    I need your body against mine,
    time would stop as we entwine,
    love and lust, we would drink until blind.

    You are the one I dream of,
    the one I drift off in daydream of,
    the one I wish I had met when I was more of a man.

    Time has changed us,
    but how I feel for you has only grown stronger,
    the scars on my heart still not healed.

    To reconcile and start afresh together,
    that is my deepest wish,
    you know how to reach out,
    I hope to hear from you.
    Please don’t fade away.
    I miss you so much!

    your fallen prince

    3 Responses to Princess

    1. Dark Angel
      October 3, 2016 at 11:59 pm

      Fallen Prince,
      Your words seem genuine now , but what happened that made your sword slip so far away from your princess?

    2. @ Dark Angel, here is my story.
      October 4, 2016 at 10:52 pm

      Life happened 🙁

      She never wanted me back and ended up burning me badly.
      My world crumbled and I felt so small…
      I tried to reconcile a couple or so years afterwards,
      we spent a day in town together,
      and it was like no time had passed,
      certainly she never aged a day. So gorgeous.
      We talked, laughed, shared stories.
      Alas, it fell apart,
      a week later, she went cold on me,
      and I lost my cool – confessed my love,
      ruined the natural pace of things,
      and lost a precious second chance – oh God,
      that hurts to think about how messed up I made things.

      I’ve resigned my efforts now, she knows how deeply I feel,
      yet she makes no effort to reach out and try fix things.
      I cherished my feelings that grew so huge for her,
      still I find myself scratching my head, holding back tears,
      wondering where all the time went,
      and why did it get so messed up. So messed up.
      Well, I know I had a big play to part in why it got so messy after I got burned,
      I became reckless and could not contain my emotions.
      A pit of despair for years,
      swimming in pain, jealousy, rage, regret.
      I used my sword in spiteful revenge,
      cutting deep into myself,
      more than her, but I’m sure she is still hurting,
      maybe numb to me and burned out.

      I just want to hold her and say;
      “I’m sorry, I love you, I’ve missed you for years!”

      I don’t even know who I am anymore,
      but I do know one thing – I miss her so much it is physically painful at times.
      I wish she would reach out,
      I wish me and her were together so bad.
      I thought my lantern of hope would burn forever,
      but it is fading, fading into embers,
      embers into ashes…

      …so to the sweet girl I fell in love with,
      so perfectly beautiful, with human flaws just like myself,
      maybe not as flawed as me LOL!
      She has a warm heart deep down I know…
      I just wish she would share that warmth with me 🙁

      I miss her so much

    3. Author @ Dark Angel and @ Self...
      October 5, 2016 at 12:36 am

      Damn it, I’ve said too much,
      I’m sorry I just get worked up and emotional…
      I guess, just venting… Nothing ever seems to change…
      Endless cycle of emotions. Bipolar fucking sucks.
      There is truth to my feelings though,
      in those sorrowful, despairing moments,
      I know that I am not whole.
      I know that I really miss her,
      and I feel so heavy.
      If I don’t hear from her in person, there is nothing I can do.
      I will soldier on and I will keep my head high…

    4. Dark Angel
      October 9, 2016 at 11:56 pm

      @ Author. I can’t comprehend what must have happened that would have made it so unbearable for you not to make contact with this person if it’s as deep as you claim it to be. There is much to this story that you are leaving out.

      Why do you need to hear from her in person? Initiate contact first if that’s what you really want, otherwise they are just words on a website and not a soldiers actions if you’re not fighting for her- she will never know the real you unless you are willing to gamble with the unknown.

      Bi Polar is awful, but it’s not the end of the world either. If she knew you, she would have supported that and my guess is, she may have done that, if you were honest with her.

      You clearly hurt her…….. More than you will ever know, I would assume. If you know it, then she felt it a hundreds times worse than your imagination can bear.

      Spend the rest of your days protecting her. That’s what soldiers do. I can only imagine that’s what she would have wanted all along.

      Dark Angel

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