• It’s over

    by  • September 15, 2016 • To You • 0 Comments

    I don’t even know how to say any of it at this point.

    This is CRAZY. You are CRAZY.

    I tried for so long to understand what happened in February because I didn’t know you were CRAZY.

    I have, in turned behaved like a crazy person myself trying to understand crazy.

    I thought I loved you! It is ridiculous!

    I don’t even know who the fuck you are!

    I should have accepted that you were a NUTCASE then, but I blamed myself. I can’t believe how I have been emotionally battered by you!

    Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you! Fuck you!

    7 months of hell!!!!!! For what????????????

    I don’t even know what planet I have arrived on, all these tears and confusion and sorrow and guilt and words.

    This has gone on so long I forgot I didn’t even want a relationship with you!

    I just wanted to understand, and then I wanted the nastiness to stop.

    You are so wrong about me, everything you have said about who I am is sooooooo wrong! And either you can’t see it because you are NUTS or you do know who I am and you are attacking me with all this rubbish because you are NUTS!

    Fuck you psychopath. Fuck off, die. I don’t care! You are relentlessly hideous. I hate your fucking guts. Stay the fuck away from me, permanently, don’t wait until I recover to come back, I can guarantee you will not be welcome!

    You nightmare nutcase freak screaming lunatic psycho.

    I hate your fucking guts and I never hated anyone until I figured out who you are.

    It took ten years. Fucker, I don’t even know what we are fighting about!!!!!!!! Do you even know that? That I have spent six months engaged in a fight trying to find out what the fight is? Then trying to placate it?

    I have been called every name under the sun.

    What the fuck is our problem?

    Honestly, at this point why wouldn’t I assume you were fucking her? I don’t know who you are! I don’t know what you’re capable of! You expect I should hold you in high moral regard? Really? Why? Why would I after the way you have treated me? It’s fine fucker!!! Do what you want! I know you’re not (since you screamed and screamed and screamed that you are not), even if I thought you were I’d say I thought you weren’t just to stop triggering the psycho in you.

    But NOTHING can stop triggering the psycho in you! Do you know you sound like the girl in the exorcist when you scream????? Do you know what it feels like to be on the receiving end of that?

    Can you imagine what it felt like to be screamed at for trying to arrange a romantic day in order to placate your behaving like a psycho for god knows what? Can you imagine what it felt like to think i was in love with this sweet, moral, kind, lovely guy only to find him behaving like a psycho over nonsense? It was CRAZY! THIS IS CRAZY!

    You are a fucking nutcase. I can’t say it enough.

    I said I’m sorry for the messages, and the accusation but I’m not, not in the way you think I am. I am sorry that I fell in love with you, I am sorry that I thought you were a reasonable person and therefore would be able to find reason in your psycho switch, I am sorry that I tried to placate you, I am sorry that I wanted you back, I am sorry that I have wasted seven months in pure misery over you. I am sorry that I trusted you. I am so very sorry. It will NEVER happen again.

    My trying to sift through each psycho screaming match with reason has only left you believing you are right, when you’re NOT! NOT AT ALL! Its just nonsense! You think you are good and right when you so righteously scream at me that I am a narcissist? What the fuck you psychopathic freak?!?!?!

    FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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