I don’t think you really know how much it hurts when you shut me down the way you do. I say “significant other”, and you have to force a “potential” right in front of it all. It hurts. It hurts so much. Like you’re shoving the knife in and twisting it around. I know, in the end, its all barriers and ways to protect yourself from getting hurt but god damn it.. Is it necessary?
Can you not give me something? Just a little? Some small form of affection to give me some hope? An “I like you” back when I say it? Those small nicknames you used to call me? Every way I turn there seems to be some block between us. I need something to be able to keep on fighting for us, I do.
Am I fighting for something that doesn’t even want to be won anymore?
Maybe its better if I just give up..