It’s been going on long enough. I need to grow up and stop being a whiny b****. I hope that the next time I meet you,if and when we do meet that my feelings will be nothing but cold. I hope that spark does not light up anymore. I hope its dead forever. It makes no sense torturing myself over someone who does not care at all for me and to be honest never truly did. I always felt like I was imposing myself on him. Never even met me half way in friendship. So I am better off without him in my life. Why cling to something that has never even been alive or cared for. Its useless. They are happy with their lives. They don’t need me. I would rather have someone who needs me in their life as much as I need them even if the only thing I had to offer was just myself.