There are songs I can’t listen to anymore. Because they were songs I used to listen to when I thought of him. They were not romantic, they did not describe or portray him but somehow they were still related to him.
They were lively songs. When I heard them I wished I could dance. Now, I feel guilty and disappointed. I don’t know if I am disappointed in myself for not being strong enough to fight these thoughts or for not being good enough for him.
I can’t listen to these songs anymore. They were wonderful.