• To my lioness…

    by  • March 25, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, Miss You • 9 Comments

    Water and fire…

    We cancelled each other out,
    without even giving love a chance.

    I miss you, my fire, L,
    more than anything,
    my heart still longs for you.

    The only fire that could warm my cold heart,
    my bitter, frozen, broken heart,
    is you, L…

    Without you,
    my spirit feels heavy.
    I am trapped, and I need your warmth.
    Sweet lady, please forgive me.

    Memories are fading,
    but I will never forget you.
    I miss you and I pray,
    that our paths will meet again.


    9 Responses to To my lioness…

    1. That
      March 25, 2016 at 6:27 pm

      Got a 1000v shock as I read this post. So familiar it sounds

    2. me
      March 25, 2016 at 8:05 pm

      If you only stop being stubborn and text me or call me, we could work on this together. It would be less painful for both of us. We don’t have to have sex. Even if we wanted to. We could really work at being friends. I’m tired of the mind games. I’m tired of no clear communication. You are forcing something to stop, that ran deep. There is a more manageable way to doing it. I think your worth clear communication, am I not worth it to you? Now you say you want me happy? Well you can make me happy! You in my life would make me one of the happiest people in the world. Why you ask? Because I love you soooo much, and care for you soooo much! I would love to enjoy life with you. We would work through this together, that could only bring us closer together, in a healthy way. We can work on a healthy relationship together. I do believe God had us meet for a reason, we just took it somewhere we shouldn’t have. Its fixable! Instead of you running away, run to me. I would hug you for 30 min non stop. Everything is fixable. That’s how I would handle it. We would be temptations for each other at first, but we would work through it. We can meet up for lunch and not bring up anything that’s happened. We would start moving forward right off the bat. We can just forget the last 5 months like it didn’t happen. I promise. Let’s try and get the relationship on track together. We still need to scuba dive…… The hurt goes away immediately once we start working together as a team to figure it out. I love you. I miss my red lashes. I miss your hugs. So, do what you say you would do and make me happy. It would be an honor for me to help heal your black hole……. A simple text just saying hey, would get the ball rolling to healing….. So I am asking you to take my hand and start on a journey to make us right!

    3. @me
      March 27, 2016 at 1:00 pm

      Ur reply brought tear in my eye, as I do feel god has plan, I was hurt n very sad when he came around . It is a sin to feel so drawn towards someone when in relationship with someone. But he seemed like all the answers I was seeking . God wanted us to meet , strangely I was smoking again . I so miss it but think it minght just be my mind playing games.

    4. @me
      March 27, 2016 at 1:03 pm

      I meant I was smiling again and not smoking , oh silly me

    5. @all
      March 27, 2016 at 1:03 pm

      @ That. Agreed!


      L for ???

    6. Author @me
      March 27, 2016 at 4:46 pm

      I don’t think you are my person, sorry.
      I wish you all the best,
      and hope that things work out for you.

      The girl I wrote about,
      she would know that I contacted her on Christmas,
      wishing her well and telling her I miss her dearly.
      That was the last I will send to her,
      now the ball is in her court.

      I have stopped chasing long ago,
      my spirit is tired and heavy,
      broken and twisted,
      distrustful and alone.

      Whatever path it takes,
      I have open arms for her.

      Maybe I am being stubborn,
      but I feel like my last shred of dignity might dissolve,
      if I tried to make contact….. again.
      Do I not deserve a text? An e-mail?
      Something to brighten up MY day?

      So many people in my life… yet none of them matter to me…
      Only one person REALLY matters to me,
      and she is so far away from me.

      If you stumble upon this website,
      and read this… just know I still feel for you,
      now more than I ever have.
      I miss you so fucking much,
      but I have played all my cards.

      If you reached out,
      I would stand up like the man you deserve me to be.
      Until then I am drifting,
      hopeless, yet hopeful.
      I need a miracle.


    7. @Author
      March 29, 2016 at 10:19 am

      D for David ??

    8. @That
      March 30, 2016 at 12:37 am

      Your blonde twirly curly locks would stand on end straightened instantaneously!

    9. @@that
      March 30, 2016 at 8:09 pm

      Haha! Funny yes that’s how I look except I am brunette. N looked someting like an electrocuted crow 🙂

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