• Longing

    by  • March 24, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 0 Comments

    You know me so well. You know what I want even before I knew what I wanted. How many years have you been waiting for me. Many. Yet even when you showed up at Barnes and Noble and were sitting in a seat looking at me, it didn’t dawn on me that it was you. I can think of many times like that christian concert that I went to and you were there, and I saw you and thought you were the most handsome man there. You have always been watching over me and loving me from afar.

    I never thanked you for loving me. I never came up to you and gave you a kiss and told you that I loved you. I took you for granted. I was oblivious too. I’m sorry. I’m sorry for the years that we have lost. For choosing Andrew instead of you. For choosing other guys instead of you. For not going up to you at Buttermilk falls and telling you that I needed you then, because I did.

    I wish with all my heart that I could see you now. That I could talk with you for hours and hold your hand. I wish that we could kiss and I could run my hands through your hair and know that you are mine. There are so many things that I could have done to help us be together, but I didn’t. I was oblivious to all of that.

    Now I’m asking you to come and be with me. I promise I will acknowledge you. I will even come up to you and give you a hug. My heart aches for love. My heart aches for a man who loves me for me despite my flaws, who understands what I need the most.

    I want to be that woman that lover who understands you and wants to know what you need and want in the relationship. You have waited for me for how long? I am going to wait for you for as long as I live…hoping to be with you someday and waiting for you to come to me.

    I have been dating others over the last couple of weeks, but it wasn’t until that walk at Taughannock Falls and that young couple that made me realize I don’t want anybody else. I just want you. I long for you right now. I long for you to say my name. I long to hear your voice.

    But most of all I long for your arms and for the years when you were chasing after me. I’d give my life to have those years back. I want to be pursued by you. I want to be loved by you. I want you to give me a second chance, because I know if you did I would be the most loving, understanding, and devoted woman that I could be for you.

    We are perfect for each other. Don’t you see? All I ask is for you to love me and allow me to love you, because of all the men in this world the one that I choose to this day is you. I promise you that if you come to see me I will see you, I will acknowledge you, and I will be there to give you a long awaited hug and a kiss that I have been longing for from you for years.

    Forgive me. Love me. Come find me. I truly do love you.

    Love your woman now and for always,

    Ashley W.

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