On Saturday I went on a hike to Taughannock Falls in Ithaca. It was the perfect day to go. As I got out of the car in the parking lot. I immediately looked up and there was a tall handsome man standing nearby. He was with a beautiful dark haired woman. I quickly guided my girlfriends to start heading on the trail. I wanted to get away.
Walking on the path, I realized that I wanted a man who would spend time with me hiking and talking with me. We kept running into each other on the trail and by the waterfalls. He looked so in to her and her to him.
I wanted that. I had a boyfriend who always wanted to talk about sex. He never asked me questions about me or wanted to get to know me better. He also worked at friendly’s and is still living with his parents. There is nothing wrong with that, but is it really what I wanted?
No. It wasn’t what I wanted.
I wanted a tall man who was ambitious and stable. I wanted someone that I could talk to and hang out with. Someone who saw past all my flaws and could just care about me and me care about him. So today on Sunday, I broke up with my boyfriend.
I want something more than just sex talk. I want a real relationship. I want what I can’t have. I want something that I know that I don’t deserve, because I’ve done all the wrong things this past couple of weeks, and even done things that I’m ashamed of doing.
I realized that I wanted you and nobody else. You are the man I want. I want to be the woman walking next to the tall guy who is so into me.