• If

    by  • March 15, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 1 Comment

    If we would just hang out with each other we could figure things out. I am willing but you are not. I’ve had no choice but to move on and try and piece myself back together. You shattered my heart the way you just threw me away like I didn’t mean anything to you. From my point of view I feel used, like once your curiosity was over then I was thrown away. I don’t feel I treated you wrong. You are married and I am currently with someone. If you ask me, you chose him over me. The only difference is that I’m willing to talk with you about it, and you completely shut me out. I’m doing what a friend would do by wanting to work through it with you. You have treated me like the plague and an enemy by the silent treatment. I didn’t deserve that. I love you very much. But can see that maybe it was best things happened the way they did because you think I’m evil. I don’t want to be in your life if I make you miserable. You did nothing but make me happy and brought me joy, until you tossed me away. I know our situation wasn’t right, but when you claim to be someone’s friend you work through it together. You have hurt me badly by the way you did things. I’ve never been this hurt before. I use to always say “no one will ever take my joy away!” But you somehow managed to do it. You haven’t inquired how I’m doing. I’ve texted you several times and have called a few times just to be ignored. I couldn’t do that to you, but then again you weren’t just a curiosity to me. I truly fell in love with you. I have no one to talk to about it because our situation is suppose to stay private between us. So you have thrown me out into the dessert with no water. I don’t know what I did to make you hate me enough to do that to me. I am a tough person and I will heal. Life does go on. I will always be here for you because you mean that much to me. I wish I meant that to you, but such is life. I not only have to keep my troubles quiet but I also have to sit and worry about you. I worry because I care. You know how I’m doing because I’ve texted you. I can only guess at how your doing, hoping your doing good, but knowing your not. Nothing worse than wanting to be there for someone but they won’t let you be.

    Yours Truly

    One Response to If

    1. don't try
      March 16, 2016 at 7:39 am

      Live your life,its tough to cope but much better than humiliation and to b ignored.wish your heart find peace in some other loving soul..

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