I know you are not here, although I used to think you were. I don’t even look at the letters on here anymore or write. But I wanted to have some closure that I’m obviously not going to get from you. I tried texting you on your phone and emailing you, but apparently you are on vacation.
Why don’t you just say you don’t want to talk to me anymore. It’s better than the silent treatment that you’ve been giving me. It’s been 8 months since I last talked to you. I haven’t forgotten about you. I know that we would have made a good couple. We have so much in common and even have the same faith.
I just wish you could have given me a chance. I’m not thin, but you’ve never seen me thin. It was the pills that I’m on that made me gain weight. My goal is now is to get skinny so that if I see you at the gc session you will see what you can’t have.
Over the last few weeks I’ve been dating. I’ve finally realized that life must go on, especially if you choose not to be in my life. What’s the point of loving someone who won’t love you back, although I know that I don’t love you, because we never got the chance to get to know each other well enough.
All I know is that if i see you at gc session I want you to see me for the first time and wish that you could have me. And then be sadly disappointed when I tell you that you had your chance, but you never took it.
I’m not going to contact you anymore unless you contact me, and I will pretend that I don’t even know you in four years. You’ll probably be married by then. You said you won’t be getting into a relationship for the next 4 years, but I doubt you will stick to your promise. You are just too good looking to be single and frankly there are so many good looking women where you are right now that you are probably done with me.
I say this because I feel hurt that you are ignoring me, but I can’t keep trying if you don’t want me, which is completely obvious. That hurts too. I will get over this hurt. I will get over you. I just need time.