• This never ends

    by  • March 14, 2016 • * Safe for Work *, To You • 0 Comments

    All this time and I still miss you every day. I have never been sappy romantic. I never thought love existed. I just want to sit next to you. I feel like I understood you and that made me feel not alone. My soul is so sick without you. I don’t think you ever felt the same about me. You said your wife is crazy but you are still with her. I had all the respect in the world for you but if anything you said was true, why would you want to raise your boys around that. It makes no sense and I am not the only other one you had. Knowing you lied doesn’t ease the pain of it. I just can’t make myself hate you. I feel like this is eating all the best parts of me. Still.
    I said goodbye to you many times. I meant it every time. I just wish I didn’t have to. You were my favorite place. When I try to meditate, I cannot clear my mind. You knew how you affected me and you just went ahead and did it to another poor girl.
    I wish you would live your life assuming that people really care about you and the things you do have a lasting effect. You were so important to me. You changed who I am. Mostly in a good way. Taught me more than anyone.
    Happiness to you love

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